My beloved gardener bought me a sourdough starter packet for Christmas that is said to be over 145 years old. I could have made my own sourdough starter, and I have on many occasions, but I wanted to have an authentically old one this time. Why? Because why reinvent the wheel? Do you know sometimes we will keep going at something because we're merely too stubborn to see a situation from another point of view than the one we've experienced? There was a time I often wondered why I am so absolutely different from the masses, even the ones in my close-knit circle. I see things entirely different. It's my experiences, and we all have them, which is the beautiful makeup of our lives and the choices we make. Many are led by fear. Fear of not being accepted, but mostly fear of being sent on a trip to hell, (It's not literal, it's merely a state of mind.)

Now I bring this subject up because we are at a time in this world when we are no longer gently being nudged to change, but instead, it's by brute force. Be that mentally, physically or social/emotionally. When too much resistance has been dragged back, eventually, the only way out is through, which brings me to my thoughts last evening of my sourdough starter metaphor.

I heard a wise mystic say once in a book I read, and it stuck with me. That if you can't tell someone what you are trying to teach by simplicity, then you don't know it yourself, which brings me to how mystics taught the Bible. I won't go into the true definition of what I believe the Bible is, (you can read it here) because folks can't handle being woken up with truth such as a splash of cold water. They will wake up fighting mad and defensive. So most (not all) but most must be gently taken there like a dear mum wakes a sleeping baby. That's what I'm doing here on ye olde blog.

As I spent the appropriate times feeding my sourdough yeast, all is well. Now if you've never had or created a starter what you should comprehend is you must feed a starter daily, if left out on the counter, or if it's scantly used you only need feed it weekly. Another point to give rise to is that if the starter is neglected, it will begin to starve, which means it takes on an odour of something I conjured up that smells like fingernail polish remover. It's starving and will die if you don't soon feed it. When and if this happens you can save the starter, but you must discard half to accomplish this. This is how you resurrect it. This is also what folks must do with their old starving mindset. To redeem a starving soul in need of a new way of thinking, one must get rid of nearly (if not over half) their old ways in which they've believed. All things die through indifference. They are kept alive through attention. If experience is the only thing that teaches, we are (as the people) "the sourdough starter."

Do you know what happens when you feed your soul with new books and new ideas, you begin to ferment and bubble up (such as my starter) with new life? I recall when In my late teens, I began using a starter which I had received from a dear older woman I knew when I was thick into theology. Upon receiving my new little starter, I was a bit nervous and fearful that I would kill the yeast, or worse not know how to care for it and it would die. But as time drew on, I learned to have more and more faith and trust in my capabilities of keeping it alive. Why? Because I had grown and learned in confidence, and experience. I knew and still know that even on the brink of my starter looking as if it's gone to ruin and rubbish, looks can be deceiving. You may have thrown off my ideas of what I bang on about when it pertains to thinking of the Bible in an entirely new light than what you've been taught your whole life long, and it could simply be, you've thrown out your starter that wasn't soured at all, you solely gave way to being frightened, and you're faith wained.

So often, folks find it challenging to change or change concepts of their self because their desires to change have not been aroused. If one fell in love with what they wanted to be, they would become it. It takes an intense hunger to bring about a transformation of self.

"As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O Lord."

No one can ever send you down the road to ruin. It's not possible. What the heart does is always lead you aright. When folks can come to the understanding of loving the aspect of their self so profoundly, that is when your life truly has "started."

Most affably yours til my next swim, Raquelxxx

The Art Of History

A new history has begun. We must not allow virtues to flee. As I observe folks seemingly forfeiting their clutch on sensibility, It takes me back that we are creating the presence in which we dwell. No one can throw us off unless we permit them. We must break with this long-suffering mentality. If we continuously seek solutions outside of ourselves for anything happening in our world, we will forever remain enslaved. The injection is in the eye of the beholder, and as quickly as I spell Jack Robinson, I've known of parents entrapped in bondage by their own two-year-old toddler. The only way out of bondage is through our thoughts of optimism.

The Art Of Manifesting Anything Of Which You Desire

My darlings, how was your new years? Mine was lovely, and I shared bits of my daily pursuits on Instagram and through Instagram stories. I have indeed arrived at a come up on Instagram, and I love it no end. Instagram reminds me of those days when Polaroid cameras were popular, and you could get that gratification of seeing a moment instantly. I now view Instagram in this way; furthermore, I pride myself in creating a beautiful grid of impressive images. That is one aspect of Instagram's initial formulation, and of course, it's mission statement is "to capture and share the world's moments." I enjoy sharing my moments with the world. I've found the most delightful like-minded souls on Instagram.

Meet Victor Osbourne- {Character in my British novel Deceit and Dissension}
A rather smarmy fellow, coquettish with the ladies, a wide toothy grin who reeks of a head full of pomade.

My beloved gardener and I had a lovely time on New Year's although on the eve we didn't stay up till the ringing in of 2021. I'm on England time, so my body clock has been acclimating and I'm currently writing this post at 9:50 pm UK time. I'm revising the year 2020 to make it what I want, which is one of wonder and happiness. I revised Sawyers death, and I've not cried once since. It's a most potent notion now that I've learned I have the power to control thought and create my reality in whichever way I choose. One must be a bit delusional to become masters at manifesting. If you ponder how most folks in this blue marble think, it's one of close-mindedness, and limits to almost everything and this is precisely why many folks never change that much in a lifetime. They've grown accustomed to a belief that they can't have what they truly desire and their thoughts of that belief back up their reality, thus creating an endless cycle of feelings of unattainable dreams and mediocrity. I'll not live that way, not ever. If you've ever heard of Neville Goddard, you know what revising means so I shall swiftly move on and speak of other matters. I've been getting about, with much research and of course reading is always a pursuit. I've been tucked in my bed with my notepad, and the book of choice is called "Diary of a Victorian Gardener: William Cresswell and Audley End." I'm writing about the head gardener for my British romantic novel, Deceit and Dissension, and I'm quite particular about getting my facts right, so extensive research, means reading many diaries, books and resources from real Victorian times and people. When I write historical fiction, I feel it's essential to get it precise, which means accuracy is a must. I only use origins from the period I'm writing in (1872 for Deceit and Dissension). It assists immensely in accurateness and feeling the validity of a novel when reading such delights. I must confess this book is so intriguing. What are you reading as of late?

I wanted to detail further manifesting methods, especially after last week. I received some excellent posts. A few Friday's ago, I received a whole clutch of questions about manifesting, and I felt pleased to answer. So let me get on!

HOW TO MANIFEST ANYTHING WITH FACILITY AND HASTE⁣

I. Authorise your preference. What do you desire? It is unnecessary to feel it real; most often, we believe that to manifest, it must be felt and I think this is a hindrance unto oneself. Honestly, this is another little toady that had previously hindered me from feeling that I could manifest because, for the life of me, I wasn't capable of feeling it real. Teachers would insist on if one were to be capable of manifesting a desire one must feel it to receive it. My conundrum and self-imposed question were that if experience teaches how would I know what that felt like had I never experienced the act in my 3d reality. I felt it was absurd and inaccurate. I became frustrated with manifesting as teachers insisting this was the only answer. Poppycock! Although I managed to manifest, I was not pleased with frequently peeking at other folks to facilitate my manifesting. I felt stagnation. My manifesting was unsettling, as consistent manifesting eluded me, I became fed up. There had to be a missing element, and by golly, I was going to disembowel manifesting and figure it out. In my intense desire to understand, I became furious one day while sitting on my garden bench, watching my chickens with the touchiness of a schoolgirl losing her looks and began to weep. I gave birth to having enough, and I was unwilling to accept my lot another day, and I meant to do something about it. I became utterly disinterested, and I no longer listened to other manifesting teachers. I unsubscribed to every channel on youtube, deleted all social media except Instagram stopped reading nonsensical blogs and put my head down in experimentation. I knew deep within that I had enough life experiences and spiritual arsenal to handle my affairs; wildly included; that of manifesting. In my observations many folks that seemed to carry on about how to manifest invariably revealed lackful limiting beliefs. In my disgruntled scepticism, I realised something happening to me a few days later (after my angry spell), and that was; I was gaining some movement on a few desires, which caused me to contemplate the "feeling it real" aspect. Once again, this reiterated that I know my own heart and mind and more than capable of my own accord. I no longer needed to seek advice and direction from others. I learned that I'm a much better more masterful manifestor than any of them combined. Indeed I needed to remind myself that I know how to manifest, and I am a master. We all are, to be honest. One must continually affirm "I AM a master manifestor" repeating through self-talk until it imprints and hardens into fact. I know how to get the desires of my heart. It could be no more complicated than reverse engineering my thoughts.

I first heard of reverse engineering in Gary Vaynerchuk's book "Crushing It.". Although it's a book about entrepreneurship I gleaned a few bits of information that became useful in my manifesting experimentation. Gary Vaynerchuk is an abrasive personality for many folks, but I appreciate his aggressive, no-nonsense approach. Many years ago on Twitter shortly after the book "Crushing It" was released, I mentioned being 7th in line for reserving the library book online. When I first began my business, I was brilliant, watched every penny, and focused on creating my business inexpensively. I did it all by myself without anyone's help, and I take pride in saying all that I did all of it by myself. I had not an ounce of help from anyone, not a small loan, a payout from marriage, my husband Jeffrey, not my folks giving me any money, nothing at all, no support what so ever, and I'm taking that up the ladder. I am chuffed to bits to say that, and I'll not apologise for appearing arrogant. I am completely and utterly self-made. {I will admit to receiving emotional support from my folks and my dear Jeffrey.}

Okay, rant over. Back to what I was declaring. I ticked hundreds of books out of the library. I think Gary appreciated my labour integrity, after reading my tweet and kindly sent me an entire case of autographed "Crushing It" books in which I happily donated to my local library. My point being is that in his book, one of the things I remembered was his reverse engineering about business. It occurred to me that I could apply (reverse engineering) to my thoughts about self~concept thoughts and manifesting. I know my darling friends, I'm a church lady, however, isn't it most delightful to chat about life with friends. For if I were to invite you to the countryside for a cup of tea with scones and clotted cream, this is the bits of conversation we would happily discuss.

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II. Be committed to your self-concept affirmations. I have discovered and feel it pertinent to drill down on the idea of having a wonderful self-concept. We will never amount to manifesting our desires if our self-concept is rubbish. Little do many folks realise that we can want to change and desire to immensely, but if we go about our everyday life in self-talk of falling back on old thoughts, we will not manifest (and if we do it will be long in coming). We have to stay on a healthy mental diet, and that means putting off the old self. Putting off the old self means no longer rehearsing those thoughts that create a tailspin. New thoughts have to be affirmed repeatedly until the new idea hardens into fact and becomes a new belief. This concept is the pearl of wisdom. Everything in one's life up to this point was created by thoughts repeatedly. We didn't have to make a vision board to attract a lack of money, now did we? No. Because that would be lunacy if we did. (heh) We repeatedly thought about how much was lacking and kept thinking that consistently and it became a reality. I used to think continually (from high school) that women weren't trustworthy, and I always regarded them as scoundrels. The ghastly debacles that would ensue with myself and women were of my own doing. It's lovely though, because now I know, and knowing that I create my reality gives me a great advantage. Presently I quickly manage to accept responsibility and get along doing something about it. Happy news, I no longer believe this about women; in fact, I now attract delightful, beautiful relationships.

III. A strong enough desire will override a belief. This advice is another pearl of wisdom to remember. Have you ever heard (for my religious friends in the Bible it says) that we must believe something before receiving it? This is of absolute confidence {trust}. If one hasn't much trust, don't be feeble, in thinking your desires can't be manifested; because indeed, they can and WILL. One only must ensure the faith that anything one desires WILL manifest. Have you ever glanced at someone living their dreams and you see it with your very eyes? This manifestation was not always in our visual reality. At one point in time, it was only in their (dreamers) thoughts too; however, they (dreamer) persisted in their thoughts/visualisation and their manifestation became visible to the world. This is an example of a strong enough desire (often) overriding a belief. This unveiling for me that I realised upon being angry while sitting in the garden is when I left no option because I am God, took no for an answer, persisted and I got my desires. Seven major desires that I had been desiring all transformed before my very eyes in less than two months. I soon learned that my daily self-talk is why I wasn't getting my manifestations as promptly as I had wanted. The Godself within must speed our desires into a vacuum formation because nothingness is natural in our world cycle and universal laws are natural (push, pull, ebb, flow, positive, negative etc.).

IV. Create a scene in your imagination and comprise your five senses {sound, sight, smell, touch and taste} then proceed directly to the natural way you visualise and see your desire fully manifested. Do not worry yourself with the components in between (the details of how, and when they aren't your employment, those are Godself affairs). Morning, midday and evening (or whenever you desire) visualise your scene (it should be 5-10 seconds) in the natural way you'd be performing if your desire were following your natural day's pursuits.

V. Have fun, manifesting! Challenge your desires, place times on them, enjoy the process immensely and before you know it, all of your desires will begin flowing in with abundance. I'd love to hear about your manifestations as I delight in achievements!

Book Resources: Your Faith is Your Fortune by Neville Goddard and Crushing It, by Gary Vaynerchuk

I must love you and leave you, toodle~pip darlings, 

Most affably yours til my next swim, Raquelxxx